Qualities was the key word for the meditative workshop, beginning with “one quality that (you think) describes you.” People around the room gave words like “kind” and “loving” and “creative.” Mine was curious, although after saying so, I thought “inquisitive” would have been more accurate. This was an ice breaker, and a nice opening before a time of meditation. Next we were asked a few deceptively easy questions like, “What makes you happy?” and “What makes you sad?” Again, answers were shared, and blended together.
The third question was the one that got to my sweet spot. It was about a figure that has inspired, and the qualities they manifest, that you would like to develop yourself. I surprised myself by choosing P, although it is S I consider my ‘heart teacher’. But what sprang to mind was P’s spontaneousness, his lack of embarrassment and overall joyfulness. He is someone who really lives. In the time that I’ve known him I think I have made him part of my practice, making beneficial introductions between people and erring on the side of no fear. That phrase from the Heart Sutra is his favorite after all, “no hinderance, no fear.”
Singling out this one person then felt to tap into a fountain of realization of many many others who have been amazing friends and guides along the way, which gave a strong impression of Life having made big, bold investments. How could it be possible not to believe my value, in the face of such generosity? I felt very, not alone.
This question wasn’t shared or talked about in the group, but rather nourished the other questions. The rest of the presentation and meditations were insightful and well articulated, and I liked the group overall. There are a few question marks I have, considering that the group presents itself as one without gurus and led by women, but does have a large picture of a male figure on the wall we are facing. I felt less comfortable with that, than with the painting we’ve been meditating with in the library these weeks.
What I felt when I left the workshop was simply good, not supercharged, although, to use our current trendy terms I was vibrating at a pretty high frequency.
Opening to opening.